“MEN with their boyz”

Before me and him separated it was all about him and his group of friends. I somehow represent girls who are in the same situation and are probably tired of being loyal to their loves  who prefer their friends over them.

They say that at some point you just learn to let go. agree.  Coz it took a moment to let go. I let go a little, then I held back and then I finally released myself. I noticed the difference from way back then to how he had changed.

He chose his friends over me and they weren’t good for him,I had to cry because it wasn’t easier seeing him choose them over a girl that loved him.

I’m sorry I have to move on which means you can’t ask for a second chance.

I’m sorry that I don’t feel the urge to call you or text you when something reminds me of you.

I’m sorry to mention that I don’t treasure the memories we had together, not even dreaming of living them again.

I’m sorry I’m not scared of meeting someone new or falling in love again.

I’m sorry I’m not afraid to be alone.

I’m sorry  I don’t sleep my ass all day or drink to forget you .
 

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He left.

For years I was not in love with the reflection that stared back at me on the mirror.But when I met him he liked everything he saw…and I started having the best days of my life.

But now he is gone,he found himself a beautiful girl when things fell apart between us. Now my mind is plagued with memories of us together, from the warmth of his breath I felt on my neck, to the cuddles, to chocolates I got during my four worst days of the month.

I’m now seated on my bed lonely; no intresting late night conversations we had together, but still with shock and disbelief that he has already replaced me.

The way he looked at her,showed how in love he was with her, 😐 I wondered if he ever looked at me like that… He already took her to one of the best restaurants in town,a place he never took me to. As I walked in to one of my fav icecream places. I spotted them seated at the corner on the right..which was actually  one of our best spots when we went for icecream together.

I am in this place in my life where I have to be strong, strong enough to pick up my pieces and put them back together. This place is scary I swear! Now I have to feel the voids   and vacuums that had been created and left unattended to.

The flower doesn’t dream of the bee, it blossoms and the bee comes.

 Now I invent love stories hoping that they’ll happen to me one day. I wear dresses more often,slay my hair,paint my nails in bright colours,treat myself to expensive food and go out more often. Now I find solace in cooking for people I love,striving to do best with whatever I put my mind to and making my friends happier.

I am finally readjusting to things that make me feel whole again.

Girl power

As I walked to my bed.. I felt like i  was not okay “I’m insecure,”I said to myself.

I could not come to terms with the kind of disrespect women are shown in this present day generation.😌

I could not understand how people decided to go for racism and gender inequality over a woman president.I could not come to terms  with the us election results. I sat wondering the fate of women in the society.

 People might say that it doesn’t concern me,but we’ll..it really does .Feminist understand the feeling of being demeaned and being fixed to inferiority.

I feel like women need to be embraced they need to be appreciated, they need to be loved. despising women won’t make you better, neither will it add you esteem.

On the other hand I feel like women should support each other. I believe in the power of  togetherness amongst women. 

when women support each other incredible things happen

 Today I stand supporting women, women who struggle to provide, working women who balance their carees and their families, women are entitled to careers just like men, single mother’s who are father figures to their children .

All women are entitled to  opportunities and jobs just like men.

Worldwide women continue to contribute to social,cultural and political achievement. This year’s world women’s day theme  was #pledgeforparity we preach for equality because both men and women have the same capabilities God did not create the two genders one superior than the other.we are both equal before him.

I appreciate women who have always stood for other women. women in other countries and areas who are inferior and have no way in political and social suggestions before men.

I turned 20 this November,I had grown blindly but after turning 18 I learnt to embrace my capabilities. I learnt to sorround myself with stronger women, women that give me hope,strength and encouragement. I learnt nothing is special about men that women cannot perform 

Seeing how women are treated gives me strength to fight and soldier on . We really need to show young girls that anything is possible and that they can achieve anything.

UNSTOPPABLE.

Her love for a comfortable life some day bewitched her body and soul.

That night was cold and the sound of loud music never seemed to end soon. So this man got hold of her,holding her left hand so tight…she couldn’t scream or shout back.On her right hand she held a metallic tray. And after some time this man let her go after her manager intervened.

Maria rushed to the locker room to let it all out .Her friend consoled her trying to explain how this man liked her ..but maria never listened.She had to wipe her tears and go back to her hustle.

Through the night millions of questions ran through her mind.But she had no option.It was adecision she had made to make life in the city comfortable and easy.

At  4:30am she headed home .She had to walk home,she couldn’t afford to take a bus home like her workmates.That road was spooky at night.But she walked without fear.she was as bold as Beauchamp.

But she walked home with satisfaction and happiness knowing she was able to work for her own money.

Maria had to take 3hours of sleep before she could start her day again at school.The cold night’s made her wheez throughout her few hours of sleep.

Despite all these Maria was optimistic that all that would end soon.

DECISIONS

I fear.I fear love.I fear bieng lied to.I fear tearing like a river that has burst its banks .

I fear wasting time ,and as my friends will be heartbroken and will be changing boyfriends after every month,I fear wasting time.

I fear ending this remaining years without knowing myself and understanding my career,and so I choose this time as me time.

I fear dependency,having to stick around someone because I can not do without them.I fear being a parasite in a relationship,so I choose to be alone.

I fear being a love guru,as people do 😤,yet they aren’t ,their love pops out for a while and then one day all their gram pics together are deleted.😂

I fear addiction.Permit me to state,Smoking weed doesn’t make you cooler than others. Being a night person and a party master doesn’t either.☺

I fear not being able to define love .I fear not being able to differentiate it with lust .I fear when it’s not Godly .I fear when it’s an influenced decision.

Many words made simpler is that we are who we are ,everyone has their own decisions..this are just mine ..Love is amazing and this was just my view ..after all everyone has a right to express their views. #fear #love



It never hurts to make good decisions.